a "blog"

(as opposed to lyrics or quotes or whatever :))

As i started to do recently, i've been writing over the span of 2 weeks in the sort of points (some of which i forgot what they refer to :))

*Missing what i dont have
I dont know.. i just promised to start my blog with this.... missing what i dont have refers to a different nostalgia.. a nostalgia for something that could've happened.. i dont want my words to be interpreted in a thousand meanings.. am not referring to something in particular.... its just that i believe that the possibilities are always so immense :) enough on this point, but i fulfilled my promise..

* Winter
I luv winter... i simply adore it.. i like chilly weather... i luv rain, i luv walking in the rain.. i like walking in fog (but not riding in cars).. am looking forward to winter because it just cheers me up... the morning chill i feel when i go down to work is an instant pick-me-up

* Lithuanian Elephant
when Chris was in Lithuania, he got me this tiny smiling elephant that is made from clay (we have an elephant thing, i picked it from karembu and apparently its an ITWorx thing as well)... it looks so nice and u can clearly see fingerprints on it, so its lovely.. i have it on my desk.. generally i dont like decorating my desk or workplace because it would make me like the place and thus feel torn if i had to move.. (a trait i have like cats, getting attached to a place more than to the people in the place )

* 90 pages away (Or what am reading these days)
hmmmm.... i wrote that right before last weekend when i was 90 pages away from finishing American Gods.. i loooooooooooooooooooooved it... (Thanks, Duke!) i finished it by Thursday then Friday i started AND finished The 5 people you meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom.. a lovely easy read that is full of sentiments.. Now i started The Rule of Four by Ian Caldwell and Dustin Thomason.. a book quoted to be "the Da Vinci Code for people with brains".. I'm a little more than 1/3 way thru, and i like it.. i dont have enough time or energy to read these days tho..

* "Ignorance is a bliss" Vs. "The truth shall set you free"
hmmm... this referred to an old argument.. I am from the believers of the 2nd phrase... i.e. acknowledge it, admit it, lock it up, and move on.. as opposed to the "what you dont know wont hurt you" attitude....

*Losing my Religion (or in this case inspiration)
Suffering from a severe case of demotivation.. i dont wanna talk about it.. i just feel like i'm slowly losing my lustre and becoming dull and "lukewarm" if you know what i mean.. thats all about that.. even in my blogging, i feel its boring.. in my work, i feel am not productive altho i work my head off sometimes... am not the me that i thought for myself..

*Delirium "coats"
"She was no longer Delight, and the blossoms had already begun to fall in her domain, becoming smudged and formless colours, and she had no one to talk to..."
Delight becomes Delirium, in SANDMAN #42: "Brief Lives:2"

This is one of my favorites ever:
"What's the name of the word for the precise moment when you realize that you've actually forgotten how it felt to make love to somebody you really liked a long time ago." "There isn't one." "Oh. I thought maybe there was."
Delirium and Dream, in SANDMAN #43: "Brief Lives:3"

Kareem (not Karim) got me the whole sandman comics collection on a CD :) I am still to read it tho (dont like e-books..) but it also has this software that makes you browse it blablabla

*Eleven Minutes
"In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.
It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.
That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it."

"Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly."

(i read the book when it was still new and it really touched me in parts.. I would recommend it to anyone who will be able to overlook its directness and read between the lines)