"The window's accusing the door of abusing the wall"

the title is from Norah Jones' "Be Here To Love Me".. I actually find most of her lyrics funny and eccentric...


Do i still believe in signs?
not road signs and not health signs... but, you know, your run-of-the-mill signs.. like seeing someone when you had totally forgotten about them... or running into someone where they're not supposed to be and thus uncovering a fact that was supposed to stay covered..
Sometimes -just sometimes- i consider myself very lucky when i get these signs.. and i like to believe that i receive them because am special and all... it's like when you stop _looking_ it just comes your way...

hmmmm.... what else?

i still miss development... Big time + 1.. the satisfaction i used to get when you get the correct output is really really unmatchable to any other pleasure... acknowledgement from humans is so good and all.. but to be acknowledged from a machine just feels "different"...

I have a wedding in 2 weeks.. i would've liked to go with someone.. i probably wont know ppl there too much, so i wanted to have my own "gang"..

In fact, in Du's engagement it actually felt a "little" good being single.. but it was only because i was surrounded with many many friends w keda and it was cooler that way..

anyway, no relationship talk.. i made my promise.. :)

If i would choose a time to re-live..... it would be the summer right after i graduated.. i had just graduated.. the variables were too many in my life.. i was _truly_ happy.. i was having my summer vacation and trying to figure out what to do with my life.. i was working on the Schlumberger Smart Card development contest, i went to Barcelona to attend their training workshop and managed to convince university sponsor half the costs ;) and i was having a truly good time.. i was doing most things i do for the first time...

i was young and foolish.. now am older but no wiser :)


lets keep more talk for another day.............

"and am feelin' the same way all over again" (Norah Jones)

"Delirium was once Delight. And although that was long ago now, even today her eyes are badly matched; one eye is a vivid emerald green, spattered with silver flecks that move; her other eye is vein blue. Who knows what Delirium sees, through her mismatched eyes?
....
Her realm is close, and can be visited; however, human minds were not made to comprehend her domain, and those few who have made the journey have been incapable of reporting more than the tiniest fragments."

Delirium who was once De-Lite is coming back to her senses finally.. She is being the good old Delight with Delirious pieces.. or is it the other way round? She is Delirium with Delight bits? maybe thats more like it.. to picture it more, imagine this lovely vanilla ice-cream with chocolate chips and Oreo bits on a hot brownie base and hot fudge :)

i always had talks with ppl about what each one would be if we were food/animals/ice-cream, whatever..

If i were a/an..................
Animal: a cat definitely.. it doesnt need time to think.. playful, witty, active when _they_ want to.. not loyal to the person as much as the place but always willing to go for a while and then come back

Food: at school they once said "Peas".. why? because my face is round (and green ya3ni??? weirdos!) but i would think, mmmmm, pasta? Ravioli? i dont know.. i need to think about it.. maybe a pasta salad with orange/lemon/grapefruit juice..

ice-cream: lemon ice-cream definitely.. why? not all ppl like it, but those who do really have a taste for it :)

Coffee: Frappe with Cinnamon flavor :)

Clothing: a sundress :)

enough talking about me, lets talk about YOU. So, what do you think of me? (thats a Johnny Bravo joke!)

what else... it's cool when you dont compromise for something other than a frog ;)

Shooting stars, full moons.. i still believe in them..

a quote from Ally McBeal to end the day:
The real truth is, I probably don't want to be too happy or content. Because, then what? I actually like the quest, the search. That's the fun. The more lost you are, the more you have to look forward to. What do you know? I'm having a great time and I don't even know it.


Cheers!

knicks and knacks...

"A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired."

That was a quote Chris sent me from an IRC real quotes site... cool :)

i feel like shouting.. dont know why.. so much welled up energy inside me..
i was telling someone today that i wish they brought a sandbag to the gym here.. sometimes it's just what you need :)

i remembered something.. in the Terry Pratchett book am reading, Moving Pictures.. there is this thing.. they heard her say the thief of Dad's Bag.. then it turned out "Bagged Dad" (Baghdad)..

no mention whatsoever of the emotional state :) but it's what i always wanted, isnt it?

in an Avril Lavigne mood

i luv this girl and her music and her lyrics too much... in almost every song of hers, i relate to at least a couple of lines..

i was just listening to My Happy Ending.. "so much for my happy ending".. i like her sarcastic tone a lot..

i dont wanna talk about it... .

hmmmm... my weekend.. or rather Friday.. we went to Star Wars Episode III (we being Mai, Sherif and I).. i've never seen any of the Star Wars movies before, but somehow i knew large parts of the storyline, fa it was cool.. of course Mai and I made an act of chivalry to show Sherif that we dont really want to go but will go for his sake (for a more detailed description, check Sherif's comment on Karembu's May 21st blog (and while ur there, check karim's Star Wars experience too :))
I luv Yoda, the Jedi Master.. i luuuuuuuuuuv his "wisdom".. lol as a friend was telling me today, Master Yoda tells you stuff thats deadly obvious like "Eat, or hungry you will be".. he has this thing of reversing the sentence structure to give more importance to what he says and creates an air of wisdom keda.... Da man, Yoda is ;)

i'm phasing out a lot today..

i will go now.. expect a nice meaningful post soon isA


anyway i leave with a lovely song for her (when i first listened for it i didnt know it was Avril aslan!!).... "He Wasn't".. (Note: if i relate to a song, it doesnt really mean i've been there before.. so Karim-Boo, please no wise "pootchi pootchi" comment ;)) -cool thing is, she is singing it on a Sunday apparently........ read thru and enjoy........

There's not much going on today.
I'm really bored, it's getting late.
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday's coming, the day I hate.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.

He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

This is when I start to bite my nails.
And clean my room when all else fails.
I think it's time for me to bail.
This point of view is getting stale.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.

He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

Na na na na na, we've all got choices.
Na na na na, we've all got voices.
Na na na na na, stand up make some noise.
Na na na na, stand up make some noise.

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
Like I was special, cuz I was special.

miaow! (or whatever)

i wanted to talk about privacy over the Internet w keda.. but its the end of the day and am dead tired.. literally drained... i had arranged my thoughts since yday about today's post.. but am too tired to talk about what i wanted to talk about...
sooooo just bullet points this time as well...

• i miss development and coding.. i really really do.. from the bottom of my heart w keda... i had always loved programming.. i am one of the few ppl who actually knew what they wanted to study really early in their lives (by 10-11 i was decided, by 13-14 it was just a matter of time).. weirdly enough, as much as i luv computers, i am a total ignorant when it comes to hardware... i luv the problem-solving and algorithms and all of programming.. God, i miss it so much.. it makes me wonder whether it was a smart move.. but then again, the programming i liked is not the one in the market, it's the one in programming contests and all that :) when the developers sitting around me knew yesterday that am an ex-developer, one of them said "and how can u bear sitting near us and not write a word of code?"... hmmmm, good question..
• Chris told me that am much more romantic than i "allow myself" to admit.. Well, this is actually true.. but i dont like admitting it bardo :P
• i dont like the fact that he is travelling isA isA isA in a couple of months.. he was my Karembu substitute... they all travel! grrrrr
• i was listening to "Feeling the same way all over again" for Norah Jones.. now it's "i never met a girl like you before" i luv it, makes me laugh!
• i wanna travel again and again

I actually discovered i have a strong personality!! i never knew i did, always felt i was a pushover ("Friends" thing ;)), but someone told me a comment someone else made about me and it related to this.. and i was very flattered.. but i thought its not true.. then i kept thinking about things i wanted and pursued till i got (my study -both the computer science and the psychology ones-, my jobs, the ppl i know, everything).. i appear very chaotic but i actually do have a plan, an agenda ;) i just dont publish it (except maybe on my blog lol)

Maybe its because am too accomodating, when we go out i usually go anywhere provided i like the company w keda....

hmmmmm am tired ba2a fa khalas..... a song i luuuuuuuuuuuv and cheers me up and makes me laugh:

I get knocked down, but I get up again

You’re never gonna keep me down

(if you hear the music you'd know why its funny!)

cheers and have a nice weekend all :x

If you wait for me then I'll come for you

lol... that was my clipboard again.... i dont remember why i had copied this song.. (i just came so this is yesterday's clipboard aslan)..

it's from a Tracy Chapman song called "The Promise"

If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart

If you think of me,
If you miss me once in a while
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

and it goes on and on keda.... and it ends by "If you can make a promise. If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you if you wait for me and say you'll hold a place for me in your heart"

very mesa7lela but i like it a LOT...

what what..... hmmmmm... Cilantro made this update to its menu.. i like that about them, every once in a while they add some items to the menu.. among other things, they added Cafe Tiramisu.. it became a favorite of mine!! its a very very light coffee with milk and whipped cream in a tall mug with a lady's finger biscuit half immersed in it... lovely and -contrary to what one might think- very light! :)

Lovely..

i went there in the morning with Chris... i discovered that for the past period i've been mentioning Chris more than i mention Karim, not healthy :( Karim you're my Number One.. (Chris, number two is not bad at all, plus think of all the assassination risks number one has :))

Actually, Chris, you are number one as well... everyone i know is my number one, but on a different list... *phew* that makes it easier :)

w eih kaman... yes, later thru the day i will have another cooler post.. so until then..

Here's to life!

No complaints and no regrets.
I still believe in chasing dreams and placing bets.
But I have learned that all you give is all you get so you give it all you got.
I had my share. I drank my fill, and even though I’m satisfied I’m hungry still
to see what’s down another road, beyond a hill and do it all again.

So here’s to life and all the joy it brings.
Here’s to life the dreamers and their dreams.
Funny how the time just flies.
How love can turn from warm hellos to sad goodbyes
and leave you with the memories you’ve memorized to keep your winters warm.

There’s no yes in yesterday.
And who knows what tomorrow brings or takes away.
As long as I’m still in the game I want to play
for laughs, for life, for love.

So here’s to life and all the joy it brings.
Here’s to life.
The dreamers and their dreams.
May all your storms be weathered.
And all that’s good get better.

Here’s to life.
Here’s to love.
And here’s to you.

~Lainie Cooke "Here's to life"

(i heard that song in the titles of some unknown movie.. when i looked it up, i found out that this woman also sings "The Nearness of You" -a norah jones song that seems actually to belong to that Cooke woman)

bits and pieces!

Pink- it’s my new obsession
Pink it’s not even a question,
Pink, on the lips of your lover,
’cause Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ’cause you are so very
Pink it’s the color of passion
’cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do...Tonight


And that's Aerosmith "Pink".. and it's very rock-ish as expected from Aerosmith, very unlike the lyrics.. coz "Pink it’s like red but not quite" :)

hmmmm... McDonald's at Merryland.. i have 2 funny memories with it.. i went there twice and in both times i wasnt "properly dressed" for the occasion.. First time it was in my last year in uni.. i was taking a "Compiler" course and we had a looooong and deadly project.. so its due date was after the finals.. we finished the finals and were working on the proj. and we got invited to a wedding.. so we leave from my friend's house (we were camping there till we finish the proj).. it was me, one of the girls with me in the proj and a 3rd girl.. on the way back from the wedding we were STARVING (we left before the buffet).. so we stopped by McD to get us fooooood.. of course we were wearing evening gowns (but fortunately decent ones :)) and whoever had a jacket or shawl put it on to try and make it any better... so we go in and stand to order and then they take so long, so my friend with her loudest voice goes like "yalla ba2a.. we still have work to do" (at 1 a.m., what kind of work!!!) of course we realize and starting bursting into laughter.. just to get the yuckiest looks ever from ppl!!

2nd time, i was coming back from a concert with karembu, and we stop there in our most formal clothes and act funny all around the place...


hmmmmm... what else... tom is the employment fair... ah i remembered tom ba2a there is something very interesting.. Korba street (Baghada St) will be closed for cars all day and only pedestrians allowed!! open street concerts and play areas for kids... woooooooooow! part of the 100 yrs on Heliopolis celebration thing.. coolies :) it will be from 10am-10pm, with Omar Khairat performing at 9 pm!!

a funny thing i just said to Chris now "Chris, am not the kind of girl that the kind of man who tells his woman whom to talk and not talk to would luv".. weirdly enough he knew what i meant! :) it's actually clear, isnt it? ;)

about the political comment on my previous post... hmmm.. eshta!


i will go now ba2a...

nice weekend everyone!

Aerosmith "Pink"

(remind me to talk about aerosmith pink later)
and in case you're wondering about the copy/paste title... hmmm i didnt find it that interesting for a title... but here goes my clipboard:
http://www.sonyericsson.com/spg.jsp?cc=ae&lc=en&ver=4000&template=pp1_loader&php=php1_10242&zone=pp&lm=pp1&pid=10242

the blog today will be highly incoherent because am not in a concentrating mood.. (as if the previous ones were coherent ;)) but seriously, this one will be bits and pieces keda...

hmmm.... ah.. the other day i ask Karim why he no longer asks about me or the "you-know-who" issue, he says "you dont write ur blog anymore so i dont have any updates"!!! well, one would think that since i dont write my blog, you would actually _ask_ for news.. the reason i say "you-know-who" and not the actual name reference is a piece of wisdom i got once from Chris that goes something like "you're pasting your story on the WWW and you want to keep it a secret?".. also i discovered that many many people actually read my blog without me knowing it :) anyway, in case you were wondering ya Karim, the you-know-what is going fine.. juuust fine.. really.. and who knows ;)

dont feel like talkng about work now..

what else... hmmm Friday i went to Rehab Alaa's katb ketab.. remember her ya Karim? weird huh? we were so out of touch since we graduated and we werent on good terms before it, so i was really touched she invited me...

my "Random page" link on wikiquote got me a very cool quote:
Tales of the Tinkerdee, 1962 Muppets episode
KING GOSHPOSH: Don't oops at me, I'm in no mood to be oopsed at!

Movies i saw recently:

• Robots (real fun.. cool movie..)
• Kingdom of Heaven (saw it yday with Mai + Sherif) nice one.. good production, no cultural stereotyping, so its cool
• Be Cool.. light movie.. made me laugh.. i luv Travolta... Uma Thurman is an utterly unfair person! nice clothes, nice body, nice person, nice dancing, loathe her..

dont remember what else...

i had so much to say.. now i dont remember anything :(

eih da.. am very bugged.. i want to remember what i wanted to say..

ah, they got new equipment in the gym here.. only the guy's gym is operating now so it's split between times for women and times for men.. i played this morning for like 30 mins.. was cool actually.. felt refreshed the rest of the day...

what else... hmmmm ah, am hungry... had a croissant and a cheese croissant since morning.. i want McD soooooooooooooooooo badly... but am trying to cut the junk addiction.. but its been so long since i had McD, its not fair.... but am feeling so healthy today... but i really want to, just this once, consider it a farewell to junk even.. i dunno.. maybe....

hmmm..... i cant remember what else... and i need to wrap up and go because my prince will be here in a couple of mins to pick me up (this one is to tease you ya Chris :P i am basa7lel)

i have other stuff to say... but maybe later...

bbye sunshine....