* how most words lost their meanings.. almost everything that could be said and done, has been said and done before.
* how I became in total control of my anger, yet fully aware that I am letting go.
* how I lost interest in expressing frustration, blame, reproach, disappointment because of how useless it is. I learned if I cannot fix it myself, then I'd better not bother.
* how much I am ignoring inner alarms, and how tired I've become.
* how much I do not feel like myself most of the time.
* how I learned to say what I should feel rather than what I feel.
