Thursday, July 28, 2005

a different kind of blog :)

("Why, oh why" is Karembu.. "N" is me.. "Sea Breeze" is an undisclosed part of me.. This is part of a conversation that took place minutes ago.. italics is me explaining to the reader)

Why, oh why.. says:
still woiking?
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
not really
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
waiting for m & s to pass (m & s is Mai & Sherif)
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
we go WotW (War of The Worlds)
Why, oh why.. says:
cool :)
Why, oh why.. says:
i liked it a lot.
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
begad?
Why, oh why.. says:
yup.
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
everyone else didnt
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
tayeb is it funny?
Why, oh why.. says:
really?
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
i want to laugh
Why, oh why.. says:
(he made a doubtful face)
Why, oh why.. says:
interesting..
Why, oh why.. says:
so you want to laugh..
N - Sea Breeze [tired & grumpy] ® says:
yace
Why, oh why.. says:
but instead of going to a comedy you go to a sci fi and hope that it's funny :D
Why, oh why.. says:
i think you need a logic fix.
Why, oh why.. says:
you are buggy.
Why, oh why.. says:
well not necessarily buggy...but you have bugs.
Why, oh why.. says:
buggy implies having a lot of bugs.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Tomorrow we'll see

(a song i knew from Karembu.. it's by Sting and i luuuuuv its depth and meaning.. Sting is also a luv of mine i learned from Du, but that's another story.. sorry for no real post.. but i am really loaded.. soon soon :) don't be confused by the lyrics, he talks from _her_ point)


The streets are wet
The lights have yet
To shed their tawdry luster on the scene
My skirt's too short
My tights have run
These new heels are killing me

My second pack of cigarettes
It's a slow night, but there's time yet
Here comes john from his other life
He may be driving to his wife
But he'll slow down take a look
I've learned to read them just like books
And it's already half past ten
But they'll be back again

Headlights in the rainy street
I check, make sure it's not the heat
I wink, I smile, I wave my hand
He stops and seems to understand
The small transaction we must make
I tell him that my heart will break
If he's not a generous man
I step into his van

They say the first is the hardest trick
And after that it's just a matter of logic
They have the money I have the time
Being pretty's my only crime
You ask what future do I see
I say it's really up to me
I don't need forgiving
I'm just making a living

Don't judge me
You could be me in another life
In another set of circumstances
Don't judge me
One more night I'll just have to take my chances
And tomorrow we'll see

A friend of mine, he wound up dead
His dress is stained the color red
The next of kin, no fixed abode
Another victim on this road
The police just carted him away
But someone took his place next day
He was home by Thanksgiving
But not with the living

Don't judge me
You could be me in another life
In another set of circumstances
Don't judge me
One more night I'll just have to take my chances

I know it's just not in my plan
For someone to care who I am

I'm walking the streets for money
It's the business of love, "hey honey,"
C'mon, don't leave me lonely, don't leave me sad
It'll be the sweetest five minutes you ever had

Don't judge me
You could be me in another life
In another set of circumstances
Don't judge me
One more night I'll just have to take my chances
And tomorrow we'll see

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Let's Call the Whole Thing Off

(Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong.. just to get what they're talking about.. for instance in "You say either and I say either", the 1st is "Eether" & the 2nd is "Aither" ;) ~Enjoy!)

Things have come to a pretty pass
Our romance is growing flat,
For you like this and the other
While I go for this and that,

Goodness knows what the end will be
Oh I don't know where I'm at
It looks as if we two will never be one
Something must be done:

You say either and I say either,
You say neither and I say neither
Either, either Neither, neither
Let's call the whole thing off.

You like potato and I like potahto
You like tomato and I like tomahto
Potato, potahto, Tomato, tomahto.
Let's call the whole thing off

But oh, if we call the whole thing off
Then we must part
And oh, if we ever part, then that might break my heart

So if you like pyjamas and I like pyjahmas,
I'll wear pyjamas and give up pyajahmas
For we know we need each other so we
Better call the whole thing off
Let's call the whole thing off.

You say laughter and I say larfter
You say after and I say arfter
Laughter, larfter after arfter
Let's call the whole thing off,

You like vanilla and I like vanella
You saspiralla, and I saspirella
Vanilla vanella chocolate strawberry
Let's call the whole thing off

But oh if we call the whole thing of then we must part
And oh, if we ever part, then that might break my heart

So if you go for oysters and I go for ersters
I'll order oysters and cancel the ersters
For we know we need each other so we
Better call the calling off off,
Let's call the whole thing off.

I say father, and you say pater,
I saw mother and you say mater
Pater, mater Uncle, auntie let's call the whole thing off.


I like bananas and you like banahnahs
I say Havana and I get Havahnah
Bananas, banahnahs Havana, Havahnah
Go your way, I'll go mine

So if I go for scallops and you go for lobsters,
So all right no contest we'll order lobseter
For we know we need each other so we
Better call the calling off off,
Let's call the whole thing off.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

I dont like Mondays!

(but no, this is not some lyrics.. altho speaking about Pink Floyd and Bob Geldoff and all, i must say i luv this song :) i like it by Bon Jovi as well :))

anyway.... i was supposed to do a week "in a glance".. but that keeps getting delayed so i guess maybe not now as well....

so, until the next post.. bbye..

cheers! :)

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Scenes from a Memory

(note: if you're too lazy to read, just skim it and scroll down to the lyrics.. i particularly like the meaningfulness of the last one :))

Dream Theater is an American progressive metal/rock band formed by three students at the Berklee College of Music in the mid-1980s. In the twenty years since their inception, they have become the most commercially successful progressive band since the height of progressive rock in the mid-1970s, despite being relatively unknown in mainstream pop and rock circles.

they have this crazy crazy guitarist, John Petrucci and a drummer from another universe, Mike Portnoy (check the link above for further details..)

Anyway, so i learned about Dream Theater, progressive metal & prog rock, off-beats and all that, all at one time, and i kept practicing this knowledge on what i heard for DT.. my 1st experience was the album Scenes from a Memory..
Metropolis Pt. 2: Scenes From A Memory, released in 1999, is Dream Theater's fifth studio album. It is a concept album that deals with the story of Nicholas and the discovery of his past life, which involves love, murder and infidelity as Victoria Page.

As its name might imply, Metropolis Pt. 2: Scenes From A Memory is a sequel; it follows "Metropolis Pt. 1: The Miracle And The Sleeper", a song from the band's second album, Images and Words. However, when naming Metropolis Pt. 1 the band's intention was not to write a two part epic - it was intended as a joke. Only after continuous pleas from fans did the band begin working on "Part 2".

In general, what i loved about it was that its mainly a guy at his psychiatrist going through hypnosis and remembering his story, so u hear the "tic-toc" of the hypnotising thing quite often, and in "Regression" you it's almost all the hypnosis procedure.... It's mainly a hypnostist and our protagonist, Nicholas.. telling the story of his love to Victoria, her infidelity with his brother, and his revenge.

For anyone who's interested, here is the track listing...

Scene One: Regression (2:06) (music and lyrics by Petrucci)
Scene Two: I. Overture 1928 (3:37) (Dream Theater, instrumental)
Scene Two: II. Strange Deja Vu (5:12) (Dream Theater, Portnoy)
Scene Three: I. Through My Words (1:02) (Petrucci)
Scene Three: II. Fatal Tragedy (6:49) (Dream Theater, Myung)
Scene Four: Beyond This Life (11:22) (Dream Theater, Petrucci)
Scene Five: Through Her Eyes (5:29) (Dream Theater, Petrucci)
Scene Six: Home (12:53) (Dream Theater, Portnoy)
Scene Seven: I. The Dance of Eternity (6:13) (Dream Theater, instrumental)
Scene Seven: II. One Last Time (3:46) (Dream Theater, LaBrie)
Scene Eight: The Spirit Carries On (6:38) (Dream Theater, Petrucci)
Scene Nine: Finally Free (11:59) (Dream Theater, Portnoy)


i loved Scenes 1, 5, 7 (part II), 8, 9. i cant recall the rest, but its possible i liked some of them too..

1. Scene One: Regression

[H:]
"Close your eyes and begin to relax. Take a deep breath, and let it out
slowly. Concentrate on your breathing. With each breath you become more
relaxed. Imagine a brilliant white light above you, focusing on this light as
it flows through your body. Allow yourself to drift off as you fall deeper and
deeper into a more relaxed state of mind. Now as I count backward from ten to
one, you will fill more peaceful, and calm. Ten. Nine. Eight. Seven. Six. You
will enter a safe place where nothing can harm you. Five. Four. Three. Two. If
at any time you need to came back, all you must do is open your eyes. One."

[N:]
Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My subconscious mind
Starts spinning through time
To rejoin the past once again

Nothing seems real
I`m starting to feel
Lost in the haze of a dream

And as I draw near
The scene becomes clear
Like watching my life on a screen

Hello Victoria so glad to see you
My friend



Scene Seven: The Spirit Carries On

[N:]
Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say " Life is too short"
"The here and the now"
And " You`re only given one shot"
But could there be more
Have I lived before
Or could this be all that we`ve got?

If I die tomorrow
I`d be allright
Because I believe
That after we`re gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I`m not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow
I`d be allright
Because I believe
That after we`re gone
The spirit carries on

[V:]
"Move on, be brave
Don`t weep at my grave
Because I`m no longer here
But please never let
Your memories of me disappear"

[N:]
Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has help me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria`s real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I`m here
It`s perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
I`d be allright
Because I believe
That after we`re gone
The spirit carries on

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Fly me to the moon.....

am in such a Frank Sinatra-ish mood.. Frank Sinatra, Souad Massi, Norah Jones... just chill out music..

G Mag, the baby mag thats also a hangout guide and a funny month-and-half-ly companion had this list of chill out music.. discovered i liked it all..... "hot chocolate for the soul"... like "Dream a little dream of me" for Louis Armstrong and Ella Fitzgerald......

it's a real tough rough week... really really silly....... yesterday i was actually _upset_ its coming to an end 3ashan i had so so so much to finish... i hope i finished it! i am not sure aslan! :) :)

what else, there are ideas.. stuff i want to talk about... but am too tired... plus am late for something (cant disclose it now but in an hour maybe ;))

i have sooooooo much to say... am coming here on Saturday @ 8 a.m.!!!!!! ya3ni not only no weekend, i also need to be here eariler than usual... aint it wicked?

my stomach is killing me... didnt eat anything today so dunno whats wrong.... really strong cramps.. and i didnt eat junk yday...

anyway................... so, meet you here on Saturday with a week's wrap-up... .till then, chill!

ah, and inspite of everything getting berzerk at work, i'm actually "content".. not the usual cheerfulness, but an inner glow keda :)

Cheers!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

The truth about cats and dogs..

hmmm... first of all, if you check the pic in the previous blog, the stupid white things on our tops/shirts are stupid big name tags (duh! "and you were hmmmmm... *looks at name tag* ah.. Nagya".. "no its pronounced Nageyya not Nagya but thanks for reading" ~fictional situation)

anyhow.. about the title, forget it.. just defending cats..

Miaow!

now that i decided to blog, i dont feel like writing... i wrote a lot in Kareem Mostafa's blog today, an interesting topic he had :)

i dont feel like writing at all!!! please everyone, wish me luck.. wish me patience.. and pray for me that i dont have the physics effect in a current task i should be working on.. (the physics effect is a reaction i developed to studying physics, whereby i slept whenever i held the physics book)... i try to evade things i dont like.. i should confront them, face my fears.. am a survivor (or at least thats what my name says!)

salut..

Us in the IT Alumni reception last month (in June 2 blog), from left to right: Kailash (Kashman), Natalie (Nana), Rami (Lucas), Peter, Youssef Assabgy (Jaw, Sub-G), Nag (me!), Suzy..  Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

1602

I was hesitant between a number of titles for my blog today:
* 1602
* Office Space
* (something else that i forgot!)


Let me elaborate.. since i chose 1602 for the title, i will explain "Office Space" first :)

Office Space is a very cool movie that everyone who works in the corporate world (esp. the IT one) will relate to one way or the other.. i wont proceed to talk about the movie.. but there is this character, Milton, who is hilarious.. they were downsizing, so they fire him, but they pity him sooo much that no one bothers to tell him and they just let him at his desk... Milton (who has a fishy infatuation with his stapler) keeps doing nothing like always.. at one point they need his space so they move him to another crammed space, then this keeps going on until they move him to the store, turn off the light and just leave him there.. and all throughout, he really doesnt sense any danger :)

Why am I mentioning this now? Because Monday i was moved to my 345435th place since i came here :) when i first came, i sat at a desk of someone who was in Hijj.. then i went to a place between two places (imagine two L-shaped cubicles, i was in the shared area), then i moved to a place in a nice cubicle but 2 floors above my dept, then i move back again with my dept, then now i moved back 2 floors up but at the very far end.. and next week i will move back to the right floor :) AND i still havent been here 6 months!! the thing is, they have this idea here that ppl from the same project should sit together... i actually think its really smart.. but i lose because i dont actually work closely with someone else... so am the lightest move :)

1602 ba'a............................. Karim-Bo sent me a msg a couple of days ago when we were in Hurghada saying that he sent me something but he regrets it because he thinks am not going to like it.. i go like "no no i'll like anything from you" and i think to myself its too early to wonder now.. lets wait a week or so.. Anyhow, so yesterday (Monday) i come back from the trip to find loooooooooads of stuff... my machine is disconnected, i dont know where my new place is, some stuff i arranged was about to be cancelled without my knowledge blablabla.... So, in the middle of a hectic rough tough day, a colleague here comes up to me, hands me something and says "Dia Helmy sent you this".. i tell her "Dia? sent me? (then i understand) eshta thank you".... soooooo, i look at it AND it is......................... A MARVEL COMIC BY NEIL GAIMAN!!!!

i luv luv luv it!

all Marvel characters (The Fantastic Four, Spider-Man, The Incredible Hulk, Captain America, and X-Men) who initiated in 60's America are set in the 17-century England the Neil Gaiman way!! :) it is MEGA cool...

i luv the book... Karim you are _da_ man!

and Adam's Mom, i luuuuuuuuuv Adam's Dad... he is sooooooooooo very nice and friendly to everyone (i went to introduce myself, he warmly greated me before he knew who i was :))

Enough for now, but Karim, Thou Hast Mine Gratefulness Forever!

Pie Pie

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

The Discworld: a distorted alternative world..

(Note: i didnt write this today.. i had written it a couple of months ago and posted it on an egroup.. so dont go thinking i didnt do any work :))

"Ankh-Morpork! Pearl of cities! This is not a completely accurate description, of course — it was not round and shiny — but even its worst enemies would agree that if you had to liken Ankh-Morpork to anything, then it might as well be a piece of rubbish covered with the diseased secretions of a dying mollusc."

This is one of many descriptions of Ankh-Morpork, a fictional city-state which features in Terry Pratchett's Discworld series of fantasy novels. As cities go, it is on the far side of corrupt and
polluted, and is subject to outbreaks of comedic violence and brou-ha-ha on a fairly regular basis. It is home to the Unseen University, a centre of magical learning. Pratchett explains that the city is similar to Tallinn and central Prague, but adds that it has elements of 18th century London, 19th century Seattle and modern New York.

Terence David John Pratchett OBE (known as Terry Pratchett) is an English fantasy author (born April 28, 1948, in Beaconsfield, Bucks) best known for his Discworld series, a series that takes place in a disc-shaped world that rotates on the backs of four giant elephants supported by the enormous turtle Great A'Tuin swimming its way through space :)

Prachett has this sense of witty British humor.. the kind that doesnt make you laugh on the "pie hits the clown" kind of situation, but on normal conversations and the irony of everyday life. The series now contains over 30 novels, and tackles topics from rock & roll to religion, philosophy, monarchy and politics... His Discworld characters mostly revolve around wizards, witches, watchmen, and DEATH :) (actually he shows Death in a very funny way... makes you even
sympathize with him!! check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_%28Discworld%29 , it's really good!)

I will attach at the end a list of nice TP quotes.. if you're into that kind of humor, you may be interested in checking out www.hexoogle.com, a google site that features a new quote by him each time you refresh :)

I recommend the Discworld series. And there is another book for him i highly recommend; Good Omens, co-authored with Neil Gaiman (the Coraline guy)..

by the way, i discovered TP thru Karim as well, but long before he travels.. he got me "The Amazing Maurice and his Educated Rodents" for my bday.. Speaking of which, i forgot whom i had lent it to!

Some quotes by TP:
"After that one thing sort of led to another and pretty soon everyone was fighting to get something - either away, out or even."

"It wasn't blood in general he couldn't stand the sight of, it was just his blood in particular that was so upsetting."

"This is Art holding a Mirror up to Life. That's why everything is exactly the wrong way round."

Tortoise: "How many talking tortoises have you met?"
Brutha: "I don't know."
Tortoise: "What d'you mean, you don't know?"
Brutha: "Well, they might all talk. They just might not say anything when I'm there."

and a favorite of mine:
"'I'm not going to ride on a magic carpet!' he hissed. 'I'm afraid of grounds!'
'You mean heights,' said Conina. 'And stop being silly.'
'I know what I mean! It's the grounds that kill you!'"


Sources:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ankh-Morpork
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terry_Pratchett
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Discworld#Published_work

a list of quotes is available on:
http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Discworld

not quite a Blog!

i knew this song from Karembu.. it's by Cat Stevens (a.k.a. Yusuf Islam, Oh Baby it's a Wild World singer), it's called God is the Light.. and it really fits any faith.. Enjoy :)

How great the wonders of the heavens
And the timeless beauty of the night
How great – then how great the Creator?
And its stars like priceless jewels
Far beyond the reach of kings
Bow down for the shepherd guiding him home.

But how many eyes are closed
To the wonder of this night?
Like pearls, hidden, deep beneath a dark
Stream of desires.
But like dreams vanish with the call to prayer
And the dawn extinguishes night – here too are signs.
God is the Light - God is the Light

How great the beauty of the Earth and the creatures
Who dwell on her.
How great – then how great the Creator?
As it’s mountains pierce the clouds
High about the lives of men
Weeping rivers for thousands of years.

But how many hearts are closed
To the wonders of this sight?
Like birds on a cage, asleep with closed wings
But as work stops with the call to prayer
And the birds recite – here too are signs
God is the Light – God is the Light

How great the works of man and the things he makes
How great – then how great the Creator?
Though he strives to reach the heavens
He can barely survive
The wars of the world he lives in.

Yet, how many times he’s tried,
Himself to immortalise?
Like his parents before him in the Garden of Eden
But like the sun sets with the call to prayer
And surrenders to the night here too are signs
God is the Light Everlasting
God is the Light Everlasting

~ Cat Stevens

Monday, June 27, 2005

Coraline :)

Fairy tales are more than true -
not because they tell us dragons exist,
but because they tell us dragons can be beaten.
~G. K. Chesterton

Neil Gaiman uses the above quote to start Coraline (2002), the horror children (and adults) story that is often compared to Alice in Wonderland..

Let me tell you about my experience with Coraline.. One time i was at Diwan, i sms'ed Karim Sobhi (aka Karembu) to recommend a book and he replied saying "Coraline".. i searched for it but with no use.. i checked out on B&N (i like B&N more than i like Amazon)... aaaaaaaaanyway, i decide to order the book and the next day, with no preamble, the door bell rings.. a messenger with a small package... mama goes like "that's definitely something from Karim" (dont get me wrong here, its not that i dont get stuff from other people.. and its not like Karim gets me a _lot_ of stuff or anything.. it was just pure chance that she guessed right.. oh, but you dont know she guessed right yet, i ruined it for you).. soooo, its Coraline from Karim :)

"It is the story of a young girl, daughter of loving but terminally distracted parents, who finds a door in the family apartment which previously opened onto a concrete wall but now opens onto a corridor, down which she finds another apartment, seemingly an exact copy of her own, inhabited by her Other Mother. The novel deals with concerns about identity, familial love and self-belief." (from en.wikipedia.org)

The story is more of a comic story actually than a horror one.. it has many of these sentences that make you go "hmmmm" like this one:
"Coraline wondered why so few of the adults she had met made any sense. She sometimes wondered who they thought they were talking to."

Coraline (pronounced Cora-line not Cora-leen) illustrates to us how, in the process of becoming adults, we can overlook the basic things in life.. Gaiman has a dark sense of humor; sort of like the one in black comedies.. He is fond of vampires and creatures with long nails and fangs and all.. but he also puts them through in a twisted way..

Here is another favorite quote from Coraline for cat-lovers :)
"The cat yawned slowly, carefully, revealing a mouth and tongue of astounding pinkness. "Cats don't have names," it said.

"No?" said Coraline.

"No," said the cat. "Now, you people have names. That's because you don't know who you are. We know who we are, so we don't need names."


Gaiman is also the author of the Sandman graphic novels series, a comic-like series that talks about the Endless family: Destiny, Death, Destruction, Dream, Desire, Despair, and Delirium who was once Delight.. a real witty reading!

If you actually want to get a feel of what Gaiman is like here is a link to a *very* interesting article he wrote...
"Books have sexes; or to be more precise, books have genders"
http://www.powells.com/features/gaiman.html

Enjoy!

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Things I'll never say..

(thats a title to an Avril song.. but its not related)

Soooo... my 2nd blog for the day... i decided to "adopt" (not steal, adopt) Duke's method of listing what he doesnt like.. but i will list things that i both like or dont like....


  • i dont like lying.. i dont like knowing that someone is lying to me _while_ they are lying.. it's "ok" to know it later, but not while they're actually lying.. i dont like justifications; either me giving them or receiving them.
  • i dont like people placing assumptions on what i will or wont do.. If i said i wont do something and ended up doing it, i dont like people saying "i knew you'd do it" because i dont like the "i know you better than yourself" assumption.
  • i dont like people emotionally blackmailing me.. Chances are, am not good enough to submit to blackmail but not bad enough to ignore it.. So more often than not, i wont do whats asked and i wont feel good about it, resulting in the blackmailer feeling bad and me feeling bad..
  • on the other hand, i dont like it when people dont have faith in me.. when they dont ask me for help where i could be of help.. so too many expectations won't do, too little expectations won't do.. yes, am a bit silly about that..
  • hmmmm... what else.. i like walking around in zamalek till i get lost :) well, not actually "lost".. If am alone then i usually try to walk perpendicular or parallel to 26th July Street so that i dont end up lost.. if am with someone, then its no big deal because just about _anyone_ has a better sense of direction than mine :)
  • I just discovered that "My Alternative Reality" is such a common phrase, it bugged me..
  • I like Alice in Wonderland.. i really do.. i relate to her a teeny meeny little bit..
  • I used to luv Paradise Pie at Chilis until i tried Molten Chocolate Cake :) now its a tough call! the best ice-cream/hot cake mix i ever had was at La Mamma at Gezira Sheraton.. a hot chocolate cake that is empty from inside (imagine a chocolate cupcake that is hollow), with vanilla ice-cream on the side.. it was out of this world! the cake was soooooooooooo hot, soooo paper thin and soooo moist..
  • i am soooo hungry and i really feel like ending this post...

ta ta..

By the River Piedra I sat down and wept

(that's an old review i wrote, and just wanted to share it.. funny how i understood back then, and am totally detached from it now)

"If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to
live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to
make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or
forget him. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing
which to do is the worst kind of suffering."

The previous amazingly touching phrase is one of the many quotable
phrases in "By the River Piedra I sat down and wept" by Paulo Coelho
published March 1997. Even though I consider Coelho to be a purely
"commercial" writer, yet the beauty of this book is undeniable.. I
would recommend it as an easy, interesting read..

The book's synopsis from Barnes & Noble:
Pilar is an independent and practical yet restless young woman,
frustrated by the daily grind of university life and looking for
greater meaning in her existence. Her life is forever transformed by
an encounter with a childhood friend, now a mesmerizing and handsome
spiritual teacher - and a rumored miracle worker - who leads her on a
journey through the French Pyrenees, a magical landscape that has been
home to holy visions and miracles through the ages. On this passionate
adventure of the heart and spirit, the two lovers together glimpse the
feminine face of God and receive a startling revelation about the
divine - that what they have always known as God is actually love, the
powerful, essential force that is the very water of life. As they
rediscover each other, Pilar and her lover also discover the joyous
power at the heart of the human experience, and Paulo Coelho, our
preeminent weaver of spiritual adventure, once again opens a window
onto exhilaration and inspiration for his characters and readers
alike.

Favorite quotes from the book:
"All of us have had this experience. At some point, we have each said
through our tears, "I'm suffering for a love that's not worth it." We
suffer because we feel we are giving more than we receive. We suffer
because our love is going unrecognized. We suffer because we are
unable to impose our own rules."

"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life
fully when we allow the unexpected to happen."

and a favorite:
"A fall from the third floor hurts as much as a fall from the
hundredth. If I have to fall, may it be from a high place."

Sunday, June 19, 2005

missing header

hmmmmmmmmm..... lets give it a try..

  • i got Sidney Sheldon's latest book.. Sidney Sheldon is my most favorite novelist.. i've read all his books but the first and last ones ("Naked Face" and "Are you afraid of the Dark?" respectively).. he is really an interesting person.. he writes about places and times, and makes you believe he was there.. so.. his 2004 latest was "are you afraid of the dark?".. at first the book was only available in hardcover in Diwan, so i thought its not that cool and i'd order the paperback.. then i found the paperback in Diwan.. since then, every time i go to Diwan and i dont have money, i find the book... if i go with money, the book is out.. soooooooooo, finally i went last Saturday, the book isnt there, so i let them do some computer search that showed that the book is there but somehow misplaced.. anyway, to cut it short, i got it :) i didnt have a chance to start it yet, which is weird, but i really havent had time for reading lately!!
  • listening to Baby Boy for Beyonce + Sean Paul.. R&B tune that am completely in the mood for now...
  • am so very tired....
  • listening to Shoot the Moon (norah jones)
  • i think am the typical definition of a nerd.. i mean i can skip updating my blog then go home a bit earlier, but am actually updating it so that am in the mood to work again :)
  • Being an ex-Windows 2000 user, i rarely ever turn off my machine.. and i mean seriously.. ya3ni my machine now has been on for 9 days.. in IBM i remember once i made a record of 90 days!!!!! funny thing is, the machine was off because there was an electricity cut-off, not because i turned it off :) now the problem is, i work on an XP system now.. XP is not made for such heavy duty, so 3 days without shutdown and it starts going berzerk.. really.. logging out messenger, closing winamp, etc etc.. and i still wont shut it down! :P
  • i want to be done with this blog so that i go back to work because i wanna go home early enough to sleep ba2a!! havent been sleeping right lately... but am enjoying the fact that am writing :)
  • i think thats enough...........
  • ah, one more thought, karim, you dont ask about me anymore!

now Aerosmith, am listening Amazing then Crazy then Dont wanna miss a thing (but i'll fwd this one) then Pink :)

i want to talk about some other stuff that are bugging me, but maybe not..

Good night.. or good morning & have a great day!

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Back? am i?

Sooooooooooooooooooo, i am back... after a long writer's block, i am back...

i am still taking baby steps tho.. am still getting used to writing again..
So let me start by talking about this week.. Last Sunday was my 1st day in my new place... I went very very early.. i was at worx @ 8 am!! on his way to work, Chris got me Cafe Tiramisu from Cilantro (and its pronounced Silantro not t-shilantro by the way... it sooo bugs me when someone doesnt get it keda!)
anyway.... hmmm seriously am now having doubts that tell me to stop writing but am fighting the urge aho... i had a biiiiiiiiig contribution in the company's newsletter thats being prepared these days.. i am not going to disclose it bass 3ashan the element of confidentiality :)


i need to go work now but i was getting used to writing :)

am deadly sleepy!

Thursday, June 09, 2005

You make me feel so young (another lyrics!)

You make me feel so young
You make me feel like spring has sprung
Every time I see you grin
I’m such a happy individual

The moment that you speak
I want to go and play hide-and-seek
I want to go and bounce the moon
Just like a toy balloon

You and i, are just like a couple of tots
Running across the meadow
Picking up lots of forget-me-nots

You make me feel so young
You make me feel there are songs to be sung
Bells to be rung, and a wonderful fling to be flung

And even when I’m old and gray
I’m gonna feel the way I do today
’cause you make me feel so young

~Frank Sinatra

This week in history..

well, what do you know.. it turns out i had one of my worst weeks since the move... why...... a series of issues...
* Sunday: woke up late.. 3 hrs later than what i wanted...

do i really want to blog? i dont feel like continuig the whole thing here.. i really dont... i havent been bloggin OR reading other ppl's blogs....

i cant blog.. really... i cant.. even listing the week's ugly events is a tiresome job................

maybe i'll post some lyrics instead! :)

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Be Here to Love Me :)

Your eyes seek conclusion in all this confusion of mine
Though you and I both know it's only the warm glow of wine
That's got you to feeling this way, but I don't care,
I want you to stay
and hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today

Children are dancin', the gamblers are chancin' their all
The window's accusing the door of abusing the wall
But who cares what the night watchmen say
The stage has been set for the play
Hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today

The moon's come and gone but a few stars hang on on to the sky
The wind's runnin' free but it ain't up to me ask why
The poets are demanding their pay
They've left me with nothin' to say
'cept hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today
Just hold me and tell me that you'll be here to love me today

~Norah Jones

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

See you when you're 40

I've driven round in circles for three hours
It was bound to happen that I'd end up at your house
I temporarily forgot there's better days to come
I thought that I would give it just one more chance

Cos' I want, tonight, what I've been waiting for
But I found, tonight, what I'd been warned about

You think that you are complicated, deep mystery to all
Well it's taken me a while to see, you're not so special
All energy no meaning, with a lot of words
So paper thin that one real feeling, could knock you down

And I've seen, tonight, what I'd been warned about
I'm gonna leave, tonight, before I change my mind

So see me when your 40, lost and all alone
being comforted by strangers you'll never need to know
not sad because you lost me
but sad because you thought it was cool to be sad

You think misery will make you stand apart from the crowd
well if you had walked past me today I wouldn't have picked you out
I wouldn't have picked you out

now I've seen, tonight, how I could waste my time
and I'll be on my way, and I won't be back
cos I've seen, tonight, what I've been warned about
your just a boy, not a man, and I'm not coming back

~See you when you're 40 by Dido!

my favorite line is "if you had walked past me today I wouldn't have picked you out" :)

tom ba2a a real blog :)

good night