in an Avril Lavigne mood

i luv this girl and her music and her lyrics too much... in almost every song of hers, i relate to at least a couple of lines..

i was just listening to My Happy Ending.. "so much for my happy ending".. i like her sarcastic tone a lot..

i dont wanna talk about it... .

hmmmm... my weekend.. or rather Friday.. we went to Star Wars Episode III (we being Mai, Sherif and I).. i've never seen any of the Star Wars movies before, but somehow i knew large parts of the storyline, fa it was cool.. of course Mai and I made an act of chivalry to show Sherif that we dont really want to go but will go for his sake (for a more detailed description, check Sherif's comment on Karembu's May 21st blog (and while ur there, check karim's Star Wars experience too :))
I luv Yoda, the Jedi Master.. i luuuuuuuuuuv his "wisdom".. lol as a friend was telling me today, Master Yoda tells you stuff thats deadly obvious like "Eat, or hungry you will be".. he has this thing of reversing the sentence structure to give more importance to what he says and creates an air of wisdom keda.... Da man, Yoda is ;)

i'm phasing out a lot today..

i will go now.. expect a nice meaningful post soon isA


anyway i leave with a lovely song for her (when i first listened for it i didnt know it was Avril aslan!!).... "He Wasn't".. (Note: if i relate to a song, it doesnt really mean i've been there before.. so Karim-Boo, please no wise "pootchi pootchi" comment ;)) -cool thing is, she is singing it on a Sunday apparently........ read thru and enjoy........

There's not much going on today.
I'm really bored, it's getting late.
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday's coming, the day I hate.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.

He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

This is when I start to bite my nails.
And clean my room when all else fails.
I think it's time for me to bail.
This point of view is getting stale.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.

He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

Na na na na na, we've all got choices.
Na na na na, we've all got voices.
Na na na na na, stand up make some noise.
Na na na na, stand up make some noise.

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
He isn't really what I'm looking for.

He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
He wouldn't even open up the door.
He never made me feel like I was special.
Like I was special, cuz I was special.

miaow! (or whatever)

i wanted to talk about privacy over the Internet w keda.. but its the end of the day and am dead tired.. literally drained... i had arranged my thoughts since yday about today's post.. but am too tired to talk about what i wanted to talk about...
sooooo just bullet points this time as well...

• i miss development and coding.. i really really do.. from the bottom of my heart w keda... i had always loved programming.. i am one of the few ppl who actually knew what they wanted to study really early in their lives (by 10-11 i was decided, by 13-14 it was just a matter of time).. weirdly enough, as much as i luv computers, i am a total ignorant when it comes to hardware... i luv the problem-solving and algorithms and all of programming.. God, i miss it so much.. it makes me wonder whether it was a smart move.. but then again, the programming i liked is not the one in the market, it's the one in programming contests and all that :) when the developers sitting around me knew yesterday that am an ex-developer, one of them said "and how can u bear sitting near us and not write a word of code?"... hmmmm, good question..
• Chris told me that am much more romantic than i "allow myself" to admit.. Well, this is actually true.. but i dont like admitting it bardo :P
• i dont like the fact that he is travelling isA isA isA in a couple of months.. he was my Karembu substitute... they all travel! grrrrr
• i was listening to "Feeling the same way all over again" for Norah Jones.. now it's "i never met a girl like you before" i luv it, makes me laugh!
• i wanna travel again and again

I actually discovered i have a strong personality!! i never knew i did, always felt i was a pushover ("Friends" thing ;)), but someone told me a comment someone else made about me and it related to this.. and i was very flattered.. but i thought its not true.. then i kept thinking about things i wanted and pursued till i got (my study -both the computer science and the psychology ones-, my jobs, the ppl i know, everything).. i appear very chaotic but i actually do have a plan, an agenda ;) i just dont publish it (except maybe on my blog lol)

Maybe its because am too accomodating, when we go out i usually go anywhere provided i like the company w keda....

hmmmmm am tired ba2a fa khalas..... a song i luuuuuuuuuuuv and cheers me up and makes me laugh:

I get knocked down, but I get up again

You’re never gonna keep me down

(if you hear the music you'd know why its funny!)

cheers and have a nice weekend all :x

If you wait for me then I'll come for you

lol... that was my clipboard again.... i dont remember why i had copied this song.. (i just came so this is yesterday's clipboard aslan)..

it's from a Tracy Chapman song called "The Promise"

If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart

If you think of me,
If you miss me once in a while
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

and it goes on and on keda.... and it ends by "If you can make a promise. If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you if you wait for me and say you'll hold a place for me in your heart"

very mesa7lela but i like it a LOT...

what what..... hmmmmm... Cilantro made this update to its menu.. i like that about them, every once in a while they add some items to the menu.. among other things, they added Cafe Tiramisu.. it became a favorite of mine!! its a very very light coffee with milk and whipped cream in a tall mug with a lady's finger biscuit half immersed in it... lovely and -contrary to what one might think- very light! :)

Lovely..

i went there in the morning with Chris... i discovered that for the past period i've been mentioning Chris more than i mention Karim, not healthy :( Karim you're my Number One.. (Chris, number two is not bad at all, plus think of all the assassination risks number one has :))

Actually, Chris, you are number one as well... everyone i know is my number one, but on a different list... *phew* that makes it easier :)

w eih kaman... yes, later thru the day i will have another cooler post.. so until then..

Here's to life!

No complaints and no regrets.
I still believe in chasing dreams and placing bets.
But I have learned that all you give is all you get so you give it all you got.
I had my share. I drank my fill, and even though I’m satisfied I’m hungry still
to see what’s down another road, beyond a hill and do it all again.

So here’s to life and all the joy it brings.
Here’s to life the dreamers and their dreams.
Funny how the time just flies.
How love can turn from warm hellos to sad goodbyes
and leave you with the memories you’ve memorized to keep your winters warm.

There’s no yes in yesterday.
And who knows what tomorrow brings or takes away.
As long as I’m still in the game I want to play
for laughs, for life, for love.

So here’s to life and all the joy it brings.
Here’s to life.
The dreamers and their dreams.
May all your storms be weathered.
And all that’s good get better.

Here’s to life.
Here’s to love.
And here’s to you.

~Lainie Cooke "Here's to life"

(i heard that song in the titles of some unknown movie.. when i looked it up, i found out that this woman also sings "The Nearness of You" -a norah jones song that seems actually to belong to that Cooke woman)

bits and pieces!

Pink- it’s my new obsession
Pink it’s not even a question,
Pink, on the lips of your lover,
’cause Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ’cause you are so very
Pink it’s the color of passion
’cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do...Tonight


And that's Aerosmith "Pink".. and it's very rock-ish as expected from Aerosmith, very unlike the lyrics.. coz "Pink it’s like red but not quite" :)

hmmmm... McDonald's at Merryland.. i have 2 funny memories with it.. i went there twice and in both times i wasnt "properly dressed" for the occasion.. First time it was in my last year in uni.. i was taking a "Compiler" course and we had a looooong and deadly project.. so its due date was after the finals.. we finished the finals and were working on the proj. and we got invited to a wedding.. so we leave from my friend's house (we were camping there till we finish the proj).. it was me, one of the girls with me in the proj and a 3rd girl.. on the way back from the wedding we were STARVING (we left before the buffet).. so we stopped by McD to get us fooooood.. of course we were wearing evening gowns (but fortunately decent ones :)) and whoever had a jacket or shawl put it on to try and make it any better... so we go in and stand to order and then they take so long, so my friend with her loudest voice goes like "yalla ba2a.. we still have work to do" (at 1 a.m., what kind of work!!!) of course we realize and starting bursting into laughter.. just to get the yuckiest looks ever from ppl!!

2nd time, i was coming back from a concert with karembu, and we stop there in our most formal clothes and act funny all around the place...


hmmmmm... what else... tom is the employment fair... ah i remembered tom ba2a there is something very interesting.. Korba street (Baghada St) will be closed for cars all day and only pedestrians allowed!! open street concerts and play areas for kids... woooooooooow! part of the 100 yrs on Heliopolis celebration thing.. coolies :) it will be from 10am-10pm, with Omar Khairat performing at 9 pm!!

a funny thing i just said to Chris now "Chris, am not the kind of girl that the kind of man who tells his woman whom to talk and not talk to would luv".. weirdly enough he knew what i meant! :) it's actually clear, isnt it? ;)

about the political comment on my previous post... hmmm.. eshta!


i will go now ba2a...

nice weekend everyone!

Aerosmith "Pink"

(remind me to talk about aerosmith pink later)
and in case you're wondering about the copy/paste title... hmmm i didnt find it that interesting for a title... but here goes my clipboard:
http://www.sonyericsson.com/spg.jsp?cc=ae&lc=en&ver=4000&template=pp1_loader&php=php1_10242&zone=pp&lm=pp1&pid=10242

the blog today will be highly incoherent because am not in a concentrating mood.. (as if the previous ones were coherent ;)) but seriously, this one will be bits and pieces keda...

hmmm.... ah.. the other day i ask Karim why he no longer asks about me or the "you-know-who" issue, he says "you dont write ur blog anymore so i dont have any updates"!!! well, one would think that since i dont write my blog, you would actually _ask_ for news.. the reason i say "you-know-who" and not the actual name reference is a piece of wisdom i got once from Chris that goes something like "you're pasting your story on the WWW and you want to keep it a secret?".. also i discovered that many many people actually read my blog without me knowing it :) anyway, in case you were wondering ya Karim, the you-know-what is going fine.. juuust fine.. really.. and who knows ;)

dont feel like talkng about work now..

what else... hmmm Friday i went to Rehab Alaa's katb ketab.. remember her ya Karim? weird huh? we were so out of touch since we graduated and we werent on good terms before it, so i was really touched she invited me...

my "Random page" link on wikiquote got me a very cool quote:
Tales of the Tinkerdee, 1962 Muppets episode
KING GOSHPOSH: Don't oops at me, I'm in no mood to be oopsed at!

Movies i saw recently:

• Robots (real fun.. cool movie..)
• Kingdom of Heaven (saw it yday with Mai + Sherif) nice one.. good production, no cultural stereotyping, so its cool
• Be Cool.. light movie.. made me laugh.. i luv Travolta... Uma Thurman is an utterly unfair person! nice clothes, nice body, nice person, nice dancing, loathe her..

dont remember what else...

i had so much to say.. now i dont remember anything :(

eih da.. am very bugged.. i want to remember what i wanted to say..

ah, they got new equipment in the gym here.. only the guy's gym is operating now so it's split between times for women and times for men.. i played this morning for like 30 mins.. was cool actually.. felt refreshed the rest of the day...

what else... hmmmm ah, am hungry... had a croissant and a cheese croissant since morning.. i want McD soooooooooooooooooo badly... but am trying to cut the junk addiction.. but its been so long since i had McD, its not fair.... but am feeling so healthy today... but i really want to, just this once, consider it a farewell to junk even.. i dunno.. maybe....

hmmm..... i cant remember what else... and i need to wrap up and go because my prince will be here in a couple of mins to pick me up (this one is to tease you ya Chris :P i am basa7lel)

i have other stuff to say... but maybe later...

bbye sunshine....

Delirium

You know the best thing about aeroplanes? Apart from the peanuts in the little silver bags, I mean. It's looking out of the windows at the clouds, and thinking, maybe I could go walking in there. Maybe it's a special place where everything's okay. Sometimes I do go walking in the clouds. But it's just cold and wet and empty, but when you look out of a plane it's a special world... and I like that.
-Delirium, Brief Lives

Delirium IS me! This character created by Neil Gaiman is an amazing person (yes just like me).. in fact Gaiman is a nice guy.. he co-authored Good Omens with Terry Pratchett.. he is not as good as TP in my opinion but he is "interesting" (and he has nice hair ya Chris :) just like Jim Carrey! :) actually Gaiman's hair is muuuch nicer.. check the link)

Anyway.. so today's blog is dedicated to my favorite Delirium quotes.. Enjoy :)

I think you're very nice. I think twinkle's a nice word. So's viridian. I met a lady once who had an imaginary fish. -Delirium, in Brief Lives

“Um. What's the name of the word for things not being the same always. You know. I'm sure there is one. Isn't there? There must be a word for it ... the thing that lets you know time is happening. Is there a word?”“ Change.”- Delirium and Dream, Brief Lives

"Funny, she looks smaller from outside her head."

"Have you ever spent days and days and days making up flavors of ice cream that no one’s ever eaten before? Like chicken and telephone ice cream?... Green mouse ice cream was the worst. I didn’t like that at all."
-Delirium, in Brief Lives


and finally:

- Del? That's not for eating. I think it's a table decoration.
- It's nice. It tastes a bit like forever... I like the way colors taste. Except I don't like crimsons... or turquoises... especially when they put their heads in their shells and won't play, and when you break their shells to let them out, they DIE...
- That's turtles, dear. Or tortoises.
- I think it's Turquoises

Delirium, with Death and Despair helping a bit, in The Wake


She IS *me* ;)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Relish

as usual, "if no title in mind for blog, paste what's on clipboard"
now this link has a funny story.. i was talking to Chris on msn about Fuddruckers and then at the same time we started talking about their relish.. ok it might not sound funny now when am telling it but seriously it was funny back then :) and then i searched wikipedia for Relish.. i search wikipedia for EVERYTHING aslan! :)

I got a book for Terry Pratchett yesterday (TP is the guy who wrote "The Amazing Maurice and His Educated Rodents" and co-authored Good Omens with Neil Gaiman :P).. The book is another Discworld novel, called Eric (actually the 1st page has Faust striked over and corrected as Eric :) it's a twsited variation of the Faust story) .. it seems very cool so far..

w eih kaman... Ah Karembu, somsin to tease you about.. Stephen Hawking is coming to Egypt, he is lecturing in the Bibliotheca Alexandrina from 4-6 June. Sherif, Mai and my humble self plan to go isA :) here is the announcement:

*Einstein Symposium 2005
The Society of Physics Students (SPS) and the Office of StudentOrganization Activities (OSOA) invite the AUC community to a trip to the Bibliotheca Alexandrina's seminar, "Einstein Symposium 2005." Held in symposium will host prominent scientists, six Nobel laureates and the renowned scientist Stephen Hawking. The three-day trip, from June 4 - 6,will cost LE 150. If interested, please pay a LE 50 deposit in room 216,the physics department, before April 20.


It also seems extra cheap.. weird... we will pay tom and know the details isA :)

watt else... bass keda for now....

cheers dudes :)

weekend :)

zah2an.... dont feel like blogging.. so i will just put a couple of points w khalass..

• Sunday i will get a new manager.. not very cool news.. Chris says that am magnifying the issue.. Akeed i am, it is _my_ issue ya3ni :D Seriously, it's just that my boss got promoted to VP (there was no such position before bcoz the company was muuuuuuuuuuch smaller), so they got us a new HR manager.. havent met him yet, but in the last dept meeting i seriously expressed my discomfort which made them laugh actually.. i went like "so will we meet with him afterwards in the dept meetings?" (i just said "him", no names! :)) fa they thought i was being too touchy about it and in denial and all.. we will see how he turns out... Am starting to try and be positive about it..
• Friday we're going to a play in AUC with May & Sherif.. Silly Goose it's called.. we will see how that turns out.. hopefully it will be cool. I already saw a good review.
• Today was the corporate picture day.. it was ok. My hair was mega "mankoosh" but it might turn out fine.
• Today i was planning to go to a concert in sa2ya with Mai and Sherif but i dont know if i will finish early enough to go.. but then again, i think i should! after all, if i have time to write my blog, i should find time to work!
• what else... hmmmm... bass keda

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

~Norah Jones "What am I to you?" (reminds me of some ppl.. not the actual song, but the theme)

I will go... Nice weekend everyone (if there's anyone out there reading!)

Honey, I'm allllllllllright :)

i didnt find a title for today's blog so i thought i would paste whatever is in my clipboard... it was a song called "Honey, am alright".. country a bit but cool..

the day started off as me waking up sooooo not wanting to go to work! anyway so i get up and go to work.. its kinda hot w keda....
anyway.. so am talking to a friend of mine about me dying to be somewhere else right now (a hotel room with A/C on max, comfy bed, pool or sea view, a good book, and plenty of juice).. he says it's unattainable BUT we can go to Cilantro instead :)
faaaa, we set off for Cilantro in Carrefour for a latte :) was very very very nice and i got the orange juice i was dreaming of for 2 days :)

we go pick nevine from helio club because she missed bus and we keep talking about how we're DYING to travel! Nevine and i shared a lovely couple of days in an amazing hotel in Dahab.. so we're just day-dreaming about their lovely breakfast and waffles and all :)


hmmmmmmmmmm.... Chris the one sitting behind me finally finally made a blog! An "interesring" character indeed.. I have a good eye in people, and seriously when i first saw him i thought "this guy is gooooood".. i am not saying that because i know he will read it.. I mean it is a _big_ part of why am saying this of course but it's not the only reason... he really is _cool_.. yesterday i told him he reminds me of Karim, and anyone who knows me, knows that this is the nicest thing i can tell to anyone :)
Anyway, apparently he actually is "gooooood" :) nice music, nice thoughts, and a fun person to talk to... too bad he will be leaving in a couple of months.. he also likes Galaxy plain chocolate like me :)

w eih kaman.... hmmmmm... almost zero productivity till now... need to sit with my manager about somsin and he is in alex today fa am really waiting for him.....

anyway, i go try to finish some stuff........

more about people later :) (Chris is interesring material, so is hmmmmmm... mesh 3arfa who else right now!)

Cheers :)

Bubbles, Blossom, and Buttercup..

i didnt find a title so i put the names of the 3 PowerPuff Girls (Cartoon Network) who are made of "Sugar and Spice and all things nice" (zayee keda!)

anyhow... i went to Hitch yesterday with mai w sherif w ablaha Sherif Hussein invited a group of us (3ala 7esab el shoghl) to El Kababgy grill in Gezira Sheraton for our efforts in the Wolympix (the sports day)....

anyway am sleepy and have plenty of work to finish w keda... sooooooooooooooooooo
more updates later... i dont feel like writing...

mood is good elhamdulelah.. some people are being extra nice for no good reason, fa its cool...

as for the "other" issue ya karim, am being treated like royalty, and am sick of it shewaya (doing the "shewaya" with my fingers keda like we used to do it)...

Friday i was in Shahinaz wedding and i soooooooooo wished you were there ya Karim.. but i really dont know why ya3ni.. you wouldnt have danced with me *angry offended face* but then again it might have resulted in me dancing with a nice one ;)

(the story for those who dont know it is that in Du's engagement i asked Karim to dance and he turned me down! but anyway it resulted in me dancing avec un autre gentleman who spotted my willingness to dance :))

w eih kaman?
bass... am listening to Souad Massi now... nice..

Bits & Pieces..

When it rains, it pours.. and when i wished for rain, i had to be more specific about my wish.. (like i didnt specify i wanted water not frogs.. actually i wanted frogs -going by the Frog Prince theme- and it rained hmmmm, normal people!)
I remember in Hong Kong (i sound like i lived there whereas i only spent a week).. anyway I remember in HK when it used to rain (i.e. every 2-3 hours) i always kept saying the song "It's Raining Men".. cool song...

I got two tapes yesterday, one for Tori Amos.. i just got it because Neil Gaiman (the one who wrote Coraline ya Karim :P i always do that with Karim.. i tell him Terry Pratchet then i proceed to explain that TP is the man whom he got me his book "The Amazing Maurice and his Educated Rodents" as if he has the memory span of a goldfish :) which he doesnt... but i still dont know why or rather HOW he forgot my birthday) so NG says that Tori Amos and Delirium "steal from each other shamelessly" (in character that is).. fa since am Delirium i thought i must like TA.
The other tape i got is a Ray Charles thing.. its a tape keda that has his duets with other people (norah jones, natalie cole, bb king, elton john, etc etc).. i think thats a good one..

w eih kaman.... hmmmm.... Let's talk about Corba.. in May (i think) Masr El Gedida *a.k.a Heliopolis* will be 100 years old! cooool :)
So, to celebrate this, they decided to renovate Corba! so they painted it and fixed it all over thru fundraising campaigns... weirdly enough, its not as bad as it sounds.. It's actually "okay".. of course it lost a little of its initial charm.. but it was nicely done.. they even had these little same-color, same design boxes for air-conditioners that were painted like the buildings :) fa its cool..

April was always a weird month for me.. it's just so transparent (dustily transparent sometimes) keda.. i dont know....

hmmmm, Prince Rainier of Monaco passed away.. a nice guy i think.. rich too... ;)

w eih kaman..... je ne sais plus!

(no mention of my emotional state ;))

busy busy time :)

Just checked Karembu's site.. found out he was depressed because he saw "Million Dollar Baby"... hmmmm i went to that movie with Sherif & Mai based on Sherif's choice (Sherif saw Bridget Jones II for our sake so we _really_ owe the guy :)). Anyway, when i saw it, it really depressed me too... but i looooooooved it! :)

My weekend ba'a... Thursday was nice.. went out with sherif & mai and heba el ta77an and heba el shimi... usually its our movie night.. but the hebas didnt agree wiz us on a movie so we just went to chilis city stars.. friday was kinda cool.. i had Du's sister engagment. i had my hair done since like 4 and didnt know how i'd go.. then i arranged with a friend to pick me up on her way around 9:30.. she came 11!!!!!! (and i was actually ready around 9:30 ya Karim... ehmm, well at 9:45 ya3ni... before 11 w khalass :D) which kind of pissed me big time because i wanted to go muuuuch earlier.. but it was nice..
Saturday the company's sports thing was mega cool.. i was a moderator so i couldnt play... but Yasmine's team won.. her gift was a 2 person dinner @ 4 seasons (maybe she'd pick me as her date :))
yesterday i paid my cellular bill finally!!! :) then i went to Marriott Bakery in Corba (i dont like it but cool) with a friend of mine and his friend.. had a really good time and many many laughs..

i came to work early today to prepare for the newcomers' orientation and am writing my blog now!!! fa i gotta go...... more updates later :)

Dust in the wind (and plenty of it too!)

Soooo, it's khamaseen.. and for those who dont know what khamaseen is, you're lucky.. (and if you dont know what it is, then what are you doing reading my blog anyway.. i didnt give u the site :))..
aaaaaaaanyway, so aside from the dusty weather, it's a "good" day..
i have a busy busy weekend.. tom is the engagement of my friend's sister... no idea what to wear.. and Saturday, we have this corporate sports day.... cool thing :)

i dont feel like writing awi, but am just doing it so that Karim doesnt find it a reason not to update his...

more updates later if i feel like it.

In the morning, baby in the afternoon :)

Funny how my favorite shirt
Smells more like you than me
Bitter traces left behind
Stains no one can see

It's from Norah Jones' "In the morning".. Norah Jones & Souad Massi are a common luv for Karembu and I..
Anyway, so i really like these lines, they really ring true.. you would think no one would use such an example, even tho we all relate to it (or not neccessarily really ;) but you know what i mean).. Funny thing is, i found a comment online about the song whose writer said she thought the song was about smoking... And when i read the lyrics again with that image in mind, it actually made perfect sense!!!

What else? hmmmm.... Good mood.. and am determined to keep it at least for a while.. we'll see how it goes....

more updates later through the day :)

buh!

First of all, at laaaaaast i have a sound card in my machine :)) probably someone here had pity on me carrying my MP3/CD player around all the time...

ok, now i know who brought the sound card...

and now the day's events took a turn for the worse...

i dont feel like talking now.... maybe later...

and i dont even know why am posting this.

It's a full moon, make a wish..

... and Karim would say "It's not a full moon.. and it already has a wish" (meaning here a "face")

i stopped making wishes on full moons when i found out that, more often than not, they come true.. and that -again more often than not- i hate them coming true...

Karembu in his blog says all sorts of weird stuff about me... he also claims he included me in his "Favorite Girls" photo album before that album got busted and stopped working... i didnt know he had a set of favorite girls.....

Actually.. hmmmm... let's see... if Karim had a set of fave girls, the list would include:

• Uma Thurman
• Kate Beckinsale (The Aviator, Pearl Harbor, Van Helsing... but hey, I would luv her too!)
• Famke Janssen (GoldenEye, Don't Say a Word, X-men, Hide and Seek)

and ME :)

Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

I think am getting to be:
a) addicted to blogging (even tho i never was a diary girl)
b) hopelessly romantic!!!!!! (in other words "mesa7lela")

Yesterday i had to go to uni to sit with a couple of girls solve some questions.. anyway, on my way back i go to Korba, go to Cilantro.. initial plan was "get a hot chocolate with whipped cream" and leave... Then as i order the mocha tart and am about to ask for the hot chocolate, the song i started my blog with starts to play.. i get the feeling that it's raining outside.. (i know it's not.. but the way the song goes keda....) So i decide, no hot chocolate... it will only put me more in the "mood"..... the "mood" in question is the "You've Got Mail" mood, when you feel you're so awfully hmmmm longing for something/someone, not a _certain_ someone, but the 'dream' of someone.. It's like you're already in luv, but with a phantom.. (Karim, you'd probably know what am talking about...)

It's not like i have such high standards... but i dont know... it's just like that.....

I want to cut it short here...

Am not in a bad mood... just a nostalgia for a past i didnt have and all.... and the memory of the "glow" you get when you think of someone..

ouch! i _am_ mesa7lela!!

Stardust

Many changes taking place on the personal level... i think i'm growing up at last (yes, so it's whenever am depressed i just say am growing up :))
One thing i really hate, when i'm talking to someone about what i feel and why i feel it, and he/she says "i understand" (it's usually a he actually!).. no you dont understand so dont pretend to.. let me speak it out even if you understand.. it's like you're telling a story and someone keeps trying to guess the ending.. you feel like "will you let me finish the damn thing?" :))

hmmm.. enough about that... sometimes ba2a when am real low and in the "can only go up from here" mood, i sms this friend of mine (name withheld for political reasons).. just like on Valentine's when i remembered certain promises... it's weird how sometimes you just can talk to someone without them needing to know anything about you before.. so i tell him about my Valentine depressions, about a person who said i imagined stuff :) and he promises me to kick his ass :) and it's cool.... next day i get a very nice belated birthday gift.. a mini-basket, a bracelet, and a wheat thingie (i forgot its name, but i remember it related to corn not wheat weirdly enough).. i cherish gifts like that.. the wheat thingie was chipped from the bottom (and was chipped again while i took it) and its imperfection made me cherish it even more... of course, this is all in a "sisterly" fashion (we made this word up!)
hmmmm.... Maybe we _really_ were siblings before!

w eih kaman.... hmmmm i think i have a committment phobia... but i think the reason it doesn't show is that i never get to the point where it should show.. it always ends before that with me holding on to it.. this is a long issue, and it's not for public access anyway :)


One day you’ll meet a stranger
And all the noise is silenced in the room
You’ll feel that you're close to some mystery
In the moonlight and everything shatters
You feel as if you’ve known her all your life
The world’s oldest lesson in history

Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing do I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing’s end

~Sting [Until] (from the Kate & Leopold ST)


p.s. yes yes nothing is related to each other here, but it's cool.

Karim (my one and only fan) he wants an update... what can i give him???
hmmmmm...
Let's start by last Wednesday, i went to Osiris Choir concert in AUC.. I went with Samurai, Karim's friend... cool guy, except that he was endlessly jealous at the kind of relation i seem to share with Yum (Yum is YumYum is Karim is Karembu is Bu, altho sometimes BuBu refers to me).. Many people fail actually to understand this relation.. As a matter of fact, am not even sure we understand it :) Anyway so Samer was shocked because Karim sent him an sms before we met and he found out that i already told Karim we're meeting.. And he's like "on average, how many times do you guys sms?!" Then when we were taking the programs, i took one extra "for Karim".. the thing is, he thought i was joking :)))
After the concert i had a good walk/talk with a friend of mine who had sort of upset me earlier thru the day with a comment about my mood.. i dont wanna talk more about this....

Thursday, i went to a meeting in Zamalek wiz my boss.. i actually had no idea what kind of talk we'd maintain on the way.. felt to me like one loooooong meeting.. fortunately, we talked about anything but work.. After the meeting, he dropped in Diwan. I ran into some girl i havent seen for quite sometime and i realized i actually missed her so we arranged to work out somsin soon...
Afterwards (i hope by now ur bored to Death ya Karim, and YES i do capitalize Death ;)), so afterwards i go to Johnny Carinos Nile City for a late lunch with a friend (and in case you're wondering its the same friend i had the walk/talk with the day before). I have a swell time and we play a lot and talk a lot and all goes well.. i go home and have a quiet evening..

Friday, nothing.

Saturday, i went to a "Cairo Walk" with PTP (ptp is the thing i told many ppl abt.. its the thing that makes these book discussions and art presentations and what have you).. we visit many mosques in Islamic Cairo.. its a group of 35-40... one single person annoyed me but she did so for very personal reasons :)) After the walk, the guys decide to go to 7ussein but Nevine and i go to Chilis for lunch.... we dont even finish off half our plates! but it was a nice chance to sit and talk uninterrupted for a while.. hmmmm... what else... afterwards i go do a quick errand and then i meet up with Du & a work friend of hers in Cilantro... cool guy, we hit it off real quick sharing views about Du :) which teased her and initiated the "collect yourself" routine ;)

Nothing much later... Yesterday (Sunday) I managed to talk to Karim... he works on the same project that Yaser (a friend of us here) works on, so they almost _daily_ have conference calls!! yesterday i just knew they were on the phone, so i went up and stood like a stranded cat in the rain with this "miaow" look i have, until Yaser gave me the phone...

Anyway, i need to go work now... one last note, in Karembu's latest blog, i discovered that he is a sadistic character.. he is "the man who watched the bump" (like the man who sold the world keda but much cooler :))

Cheers!